Updating my life - The Tragedy

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim

There's a reason why ummi did not update for quite a long time.

W.O.R.K.

Since the very 6th of Syawal, while others still celebrating, ummi already kick off in the office, doing tender.

Deadline was in 28, 29 th August, 03 September and 05 September.

Can you imagine my life?

Ummi was working during raya's holiday, during Merdeka holiday..days and night.

Most of the time, it was ayah who take care of amir and everything.

Ummi thought that this nightmare will end on the 3rd September..That the tender on 5th will be assisted by a colleague.

Let me brief about the 5th Sept tender. It had to be sent to UTM Skudai JB. So ummi had to complete everything before 7am, 5th Sept.

The clock is ticking, ummi had been working since morning 4th Sept till night.

On 12 am, amir want to breastfeed. And he wouldnt let go till its like 2 am. Ummi patiently wait till 3. Still the same.

Had no choice, ummi wakes amir up and continues the work.

Ayah had to get sleep though, because he had to drive to JB. But with amir that didnt want to sleep without me beside, things get tough.

and a few of unwanted things happened...ummi and amir end up in tears.

At first ummi cried, amir is kissing ummi a few times to calm me down.

Second time, he joined me.

And ayah comfort us.

The three of us are so breaking off under this indescribably pressure.
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At 5 am, ayah brought amir out, sleeping in the car. And ummi continued the tender.

It was so hard, the tender, because it needs 3 copies, and all the A3 size paper. For a five-years-experience-of-doing-tenders person like me saying hard, it means a lot.

But what makes the tender more difficult is the fact that ummi had a 1year and 8months old son to take care now. That's why ummi is quite hoping that the colleague will help ummi. But ummi dont want to talk about that part, because it is too hurting.

So ummi keep whispering to amir, "InsyaAllah, tommorow i will entertain you the whole day, amir, be good..and forgive me.."
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The tender basically done at 6 am..but the finishing part is challenging.

With a 6 to 7 inch thick document, there's no binder in the office that can bind it. And ummi got three sets to be bind. Have to get help from ayah, with amir sleeping alone in the car outside the office (but ummi left the front door open and ALWAYS check on him) somehow we get it done by 7.15am.

And Allah The Most Merciful, giving ayah a co-driver, his friend to accompany the journey.

Ummi and amir back home, sleeping.
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The whole 6th September ummi spent time with amir, just like the promise. So happy seeing him happy, always come to ummi want to breasfeed (he really make full use of ummi being home), playing, watching movies, eating..

There's a time when amir hold ummi's head and give ummi a lot of kisses....Its like he wants to say that he miss me a lot.
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And today when ummi send amir to Kak aishah, he went straight inside without hesitation. Alhamdulillah.

And ummi is still waiting to spent a quality time with ayah, that insyaAllah will come home today.

THE END