Ummi @ 38-39 weeks (4th Pregnancy)

*Coretan santai sang ummi yang akan mencampur adukkan bahasa melayu, bahasa pasar dan english.*

Sedar tak sedar dah masuk minggu ke 38 kehamilan ummi. Bukanla tak sedar mana pun, memang ummi counting everything, but well,  it finally arrives. The full term. Saat paling mendebarkan untuk setiap ibu (mungkin). It is for me as it's always a battle between life and death. Oh don't let me start on 'battle'. Every day is for me. It's either big or small.

Hari-hari sebegini, dengan 'keras perut'/braxton hicks/abdominal cramping makin kerap terasa, dengan karenah simple anak-anak  (terutama abang-abang yang 'suka mengusik' dan khadijah akan menangis kuat-kuat) yang mudah membuat ummi naik angin atau terasa nak menangis sekali. Terasa stimulation overload sangat terutama dari segi sound, pabila anak-anak bermain dan bersuara dengan kuat, everyday, it feels like it's too much, walhal it's normal for them, they are kids ummi. Nevertheless, ummi will ask for forgiveness every night from each of them and i really mean it. I'm far from the super ummi title, but they said don't justify yourself ummi. Not everything that i've done are right or wrong, but still i'll always do or at least try my best given the current circumstances.

Pregnancy and ummi.

Kali ni ummi dilabelkan sebagai 'GDM (Gestational diabetes mellitus)-on diet control', banyak kali kena buat BSP, review BSP di klinik dan sebagainya. Masa MGTT (glucose test) ummi tempohari, bacaan gula selepas 2 jam adalah 8.2 mmol/L! Normal patutnya bawah 6.7mmol/L. Fasting should be below 5.2mmol/L. So belilah umi glucometer untuk monitor bacaan gula dalam darah ummi. Antara penerangan yang ummi pick up dari various doktor di KK, yang mana ada yang sangat concern, ada yang macam tak berapa kisah, dan sebagainya, bahawa antara risiko GDM yang obvious adalah ibu dan atau baby besar, so risiko ceaser adalah tinggi. For ummi alhamdulillah berat on track, begitu juga baby. Risiko lain banyak, tapi ada satu yang caught my attention. Iaitu pabila baby dah biasa dengan supply glucose tinggi sepanjang kehamilan (or sepanjang GDM tu), once baby delivered and separated from the cord, the supply will drop dramatically and caused the baby to go hypoglycemia. It makes me down for a few days. Tapi, ummi percaya itulah antara hikmah sunnah tahnik sebaik sahaja baby lahir, untuk bekalan glukos sementara baby establish good feeding with ummi, insyaAllah khair. So as a result, ummi kurangkan makan (kot) since sugar is in almost everything that we eat, though it's always glitches here and there (maaf ya Allah, and baby).

Back pain, at lower right back. It is intense when ummi stay in a position for quite a long time. Especially when waking up from sleep. And the numbness. One more thing is itchiness. Maybe ummi had experienced it before but i think it is the worst this time around. It's quite (so) bad at the morning, after bath, sweating and anytime it strikes, at several fix places. Allahu rabbi. Ummi had try semambu product and so on, but i think it's still the same, so ummi just stick to applying olive oil once or few times a day. Tapi itulah agaknya antara hikmah PKPB, kita duduk rumah most of the time, so less to worry about attire yang akan mengundang peluh itu.

Let us now focus on the good parts. Important to keep our feet on the ground, to keep our gratitude's checked. Alhamdulillah, so far baby is doing well. A lot of moving in there. Bahagian kiri perut ummi memang tempat gerakan yang benjol-benjol tu, depan perut ummi kadang-kadang bentuk yang senget sebelah tu seolah-olah baby tengah stretch. Bahagian bawah perut kanan, selalunya tempat baby hiccups dan pergerakan-pergerakan kecil banyak terasa di situ. Basically, merasai movement baby adalah the most magnificent experience ever in pregnancy (you know, despite every other things). Everything else alhamdulillah normal and on track. Last scan at 37 weeks doctor estimate baby's weight approximately 2.7kg

Entry interval : 27th November - 02 December 2020

01 Dec 20 - My final clinic check up, works, banks and day out with ayah.

Ummi had graduated clinic visit this very day. The next is, if ummi's still haven't deliver, is hospital at 8th Dec, getting ready to be induce, as they said GDM issue cannot exceed even one day of EDD, which is on 9th December. Everything else seems normal and fine, minus this itchiness.

We walked quite a lot today, to BIMB, CIMB, DIY (which ummi find it quite overwhelming since i haven't got here for a very long time), SR for my RV (sorry baby), and spend night mengaji and playing with kids.

Till now ummi is still on the verge of praying, wondering, thinking, reading about a lot of things. There's a small leak i guess, but ummi had to really confirm with the strong surge and everything before making any moves. The bags are all in the car, and ummi basically gets everything that i want to eat, the last one maybe laksa before i go into confinement. 

InsyaAllah tujuan ummi mencoret adalah untuk ummi sendiri baca, later in the future. Setiap kali kehamilan, ummi akan buka balik blog ini untuk membaca kembali pengalaman kehamilan sebelumnya. Obviously i don't remember the details. Untuk mensyukuri dan menghayati setiap kurniaan dan dugaan Ilahi.

Doa Nabi musa a.s dalam Surah Qasas ayat 24:

Lalu berdoa (Musa):

"Ya Tuhanku sesungguhnya aku sangat memerlukan sesuatu kebaikan yang Engkau turunkan kepadaku".

Allahumma Amin..